Dream of a dream

It didn´t turn out to be fake. I was pretty disappointed in my own perception of this poisonous solution that Jillian came up with, and regretted not beeing able to trust and follow whatever path my intuition would´ve led me on. On the other hand, I felt I couldn´t deal anymore with the same morbid atmosphere. All the beautiful was suddenly gone, I couldn´t tell wheter it got absorbed back to where it belonged, into the primordial entity who probably got too tired of continuously wasting self all over, or it was just leaving place for other things to grow. Such as this unbearable heat and melted human flesh, savoured to the bone by its own inspiration, such as this smell flowing in the air full of gratitude, awareness and death. Then I saw a dog eating the knee of his master, but the master was not against it, maybe he thought he knew something.

Well, I kept on wondering about how I could have changed the moment, which was the only truth I knew, but I wasn´t even ready to assume it. And I gladly did not. Cause, if I could make my own better truth and cover it with the shape of reality, just like the one before it, why not just go for it?

- So the facts we got are very unprecise. Actually, until we come up with some facts, answer this question..are you willing to go with me?
- I will not insult you with any doubts related to your ability of leading us all, let alone two people. What I question though is your capability of following a more secure path than the one you´ve written yourself.
- And is that good or bad, Sophia?
- It is best.
- And do you trust that we could go right up and suffocate God?
- I´ve heard He didn´t breathe.

A tease for Rozy.

I´ve thought too much about the possible ways I could die as my path unfolded, and too little times about how I could´ve become part of the whole idea of life. Even if the fear and enthusiasm which have always shared the same corner of my soul threw me in some sort of a permanent war, it was never a fight against the outside. It was always about my world. I yet had to go on vacation in the West of Dobrogea which is the romanian region where I was born. I happily lived there until I completed elementary school. I didn´t change location after that, just my life turned a bit..unreal.

Proteste la Chisinau

Da, blogul asta nu este menit sa contina nimic de natura politica, insa ce s-a intamplat ieri 6 aprilie in Republica Moldova pur si simplu m-a stupefiat. Deci fratii nostri moldoveni, precum deja stiti, nu se prezinta in numar mare la vot, si PCRM castiga alegerile cu 95% din voturi. Este pacat ca Republica se apropie de Rusia din ce in ce mai mult, ca unui rus i se raspunde mereu in rusa de catre romanii de peste Prut..pentru simplul motiv ca invata rusa in scoli si li se pare normal sa le raspunda in rusa, in tara la ei. Si rusnacii hraniti de o natiune de romani(fiindca mie asa imi place sa ii numesc) nu se sinchisesc sa invete limba, ca de..sunt smekeri ei.
Oricum, bine macar ca se urneste roata cu ceva proteste pe la Bucuresti, poate vreun politician care afirma ca iese cu partidul sau in strada CHIAR face asta, eu personal sunt nostalgica si pe buna dreptate, fiindca si ei tot romani sunt si exista si minti treze de moldoveni care cunosc asta. Ar fi bine sa se ia masuri si de la Bucuresti, studentii din Cluj planuiesc si ei sa iasa in strada. All is quiet la Constanta, pentru ca ..avem cumva un statut de studenti de mana a 3a? Sau ne place mai mult sa ne consideram atat de COOL, incat nu ne incurcam noi cu treburile astea, avem propria noastra viata foarte trendy and that´s that.

Pai..rusine. Sa vedem rezultatele intre timp, e sigur ca astia nu pleaca de buna voie de la putere, dar nici moldovenii nu par sa sustina comunistii. Ma intreb acum, se blocasera studentii prin biblioteci si sali de studiu cand ar fi trebuit sa fie la vot? Sau sunt chiar asa..al naibii de batrani si una in gand si sentiment cu comunismul?

Degeaba se aduna ei in fata Ambasadei Chinei fiindca aia sunt in Orient mai fratilor..se roaga cucii de ei sa plece de la lucru. Sa se mobilizeze sa schimbe ceva pentru ei, fiindca nu chinezii le conduc lor tara, sa se adune in fata Ambasadei Rusiei daca ii tine.